in honor of my four year bloggingversary (or whatever they call it)

This week marks my four year anniversary of blogging. And on this occasion, I'm curious to know if there are any other bloggers out there who wonder what the heck am I doing on this time suck called a computer?

Before I returned to work full time, whenever I'd sit down to update my blog, the thoughts and words would flow out of my fingertips like a receding tide in the Bay of Fundy. Writing was a cathartic outlet. But it's just not the same way, anymore. Perhaps it's that the amount I spend working full time has zapped my creativity. There's no doubt, our children are just as adorable - and at an all time high of hilarity - but I just can't seem to adequately capture them in words, anymore. These days, I struggle to figure out what I want to write about and then, I wonder if what I'm writing will be important to anyone.

The thought has crossed my mind to only update this blog once or twice a week - or maybe once or twice a month - but I feel like if I don't update everyday, I'll disappoint people.

Who exactly, I have no idea.

All those imaginary friends that live inside my computer?

More frequently, it seems that I'm sitting in my little chair in front of the computer and scratching my head thinking, "What do I have the brain capacity to write about? Will I be able to string together more than two words in a coherent sentence? What really needs to be written? What is the PURPOSE of writing anything? Is what I'm about to write going to do anything to improve someone's life or the state of our world? Do I sit and try to write something thought provoking, or do I go lay in bed and see if I can catch an old Molly Ringwald movie on TBS?"

Recently, I wondered if all of these thoughts that I've spent so much time capturing will still be available when my children are at an age to appreciate them? And if not, WHAT IS THE POINT in recording any thoughts at all?

In all honesty, I envision this blog being so much more than it is, but I just can't summon the time or talent to get it there. And day light savings time CERTAINLY hasn't helped. Nor has my goal to be in bed before 11:00 PM every night. Take now for instance. It's already 10:50 at night?! Didn't I just tuck the children in to bed two hours ago?

Answer: Yes, I did.

(For those that don't know, DLS stands for Devil Laughing Silently.)

So I'm thinking of giving things up. At least a little bit.

Of course whether or not I cut back on my blogging remains to be seen. For the past several years, updating this website has been a habit. It's been something that I've done everyday, like brushing my teeth. Still, I can't help but wonder if I post less often, will the things I write about be that much better? Or will I lose my momentum to write entirely and instead become a Molly Ringwald trivia expert?

Perhaps I should stop writing and just post pictures with a caption or two?

Or maybe this is just a phase and I'll snap out of it in a few days?

In the meantime, check out the pink jasmine from our backyard:



Spring has finally sprung!



Indeed, it was a brutal winter here in San Diego.



All two and a half days of it.