I'm sitting on the phone - with computer support techs who are trying to trouble shoot my work computer - and while they're working their magic via Net Meeting - I'm checking out my archives because there is truly nothing better that I can do.
Except vacuum. And that would be too obvious.
Unfortunately, the technical problems that I am having are due to both my machine and a corruption to my files which are on the server. So a new computer isn't going to completely solve the problem. From what I gather, there is much work to be done. Sadly, nobody knows quite what, yet.
But while I'm checking out my archives, I'm hard pressed to understand why any one, save my mother, would ever read this blog. It's like being caught in the mind of a crazy person.
I am happy! I am mad!!
I want to move! I don't want to go anywhere!!
I want to stay in California! I want to get out as fast as we possibly can!!
I love my job! I don't want to work anymore!!
I want to be with my children! I want to relocate my children to the MOON!!
I love my family! My family drives me iNsAnE!!
I am on a health kick, let's get fit! Shhh, I'm hiding in the closet eating cookies!!
I believe in God!! I was up all night trying to figure out if there is any purpose to life?
Hello. Is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can hear me. Is there anyone at home?
Seriously. I've got some major issues, people.
Do you read this gibberish just so you can feel normal about your own chaos? Or do you like comparing yourself while thinking, "I'm glad I'm not a nut like her! Yowzie. She's off the deep end!"
Oh whatever. Don't tell me. Your answer might scare me.
We've dug deep in to our souls to figure out what our next steps should be. I've prayed on it, lit candles over it, looked for signs in the stars and shook a Magic 8-Ball until I had blisters. I also made a list of the reasons to stay and go. And because I share all kinds of nuggets of my personal life, I'm sharing our reasons, here. Ready, set, play ball!
A DOZEN REASONS TO LEAVE SAN DIEGO
1) Opportunity to experience seasons
2) Real live trees that aren't planted from 5-gallon buckets
3) Slower pace of life
4) Less people
5) More affordable cost of living
6) Potential to live on a piece of property without a neighbor five feet away
7) Proximity to the gorgeous mountains and gorgeous coast
8) Proximity to family
9) Career opportunities for Charlie
10) Better potential for me to stay home
11) New places to explore
12) LIFE IS SHORT. CHANGE IS GOOD
A DOZEN REASONS TO STAY IN SAN DIEGO
1) Our quaint house
2) Our awesome community
3) Our church
4) Our friends
6) MY career
7) Charlie's budding business
8) Family that lives an 8-hour car drive away
9) SeaWorld, the Zoo, Legoland and a million museums
11) And this...
12) And last but not least, THIS...
My head hurts from all this thinking.
And since I'm looking at the hourglass stuck on my computer screen and a bar at the bottom that indicates I have approximately six hours before this newest "fix" that they are attempting is completed (and which may or may not work - their words, not mine), I've decided I'm going to disconnect from this pointless phone call and go join them.
Ah yes. That's much better.